In truth, 2022 was a challenging year. Probably one of the top 3 challenging years of my adult life. A year of taking risks, making big decisions and investments, putting myself out there, and as always, navigating unexpected consequences.
I whole-heartedly trust the internal growth that is ignited within profound challenges ALWAYS has divine intelligence. The beyond is always the grand designer.
I came face to face with big healing this year - betrayal, loss, heartbreak. Uprooting deep old wounds, clearing out the lingering past. Leading me to dig deeper, to land once again in the solidity of all that is. The foundation that holds everything. No matter what is happening internally or externally, this is it; and the journey back each moment is the most profound healer and teacher there is.
The process of letting go of layers of concepts, perceptions, ideas of who I am, how life should look is always at it's core the most enriching and fulfilling path any one person could take. Because this year's shedding, ultimately led me to deeper alignment - with the truth of who I am, what I am here to do, to be, to stand for, to share. Beyond all the bullshit.
Sharing it out in the world into form, is a whole other journey. But one that I'm 1000% committed to embodying, no matter where it takes me, how long it takes, how messy it gets, or what anyone else thinks. The continual realigning to my truth sometimes is a practice of the yoga of disgust (as one of my teachers likes to speak about - sending gratitude to her if she's reading this). Disgust as the teacher for what is not in alignment.
I am welcoming 2023 with confidence and knowing. Connected to the visions; Watering their seeds planted in my heart and soul. They are the precious gifts that I am tasked with bringing into the world, for myself, for others, for this crazy evolutionary roller-coaster ride we are on.
With humble gratitude to spirit, with trust and excitement, I cross the threshold into a new year.
Thank you for reading, and I send blessings for your transition & our transition.
𝗜𝗡𝗧𝗢 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗚𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧 𝗠𝗬𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗬
I lost a mentor a few weeks ago in a tragic accident.
I only found out this week and it's hit me very deeply on all levels. I'd spoken to him the day before he died, and he was in unusually high spirits and offering a beautiful transmission.
This teacher I respected very much. I honor his deep wisdom and experience in healing and shamanic traditions from all over the world. He was someone that I could go with to the outer reaches of consciousness. Into other dimensions, into the bizarre, unheard of territories. Into the great mystery. And then bring it all back into the 3D world in the here and now.
We'd go unravel pieces of the mystery that were ready to be alchemized. And then he'd make sure all pieces of me were safely back in my body. Teaching me to continually refine my energetic field, my ability to perceive energies, and to decode the intelligence and the frequencies that I sensed.
He didn't work much with the plants himself, but always encouraged my dedication on this path. He championed the purity of their energies, their spirits and their power for healing this earth.
We had many conversations around the trans-human spaces, and as this popular AI wave rolls through, I half-laugh at what he would say. He was a very strong supporter of keeping all non-organic frequencies out of the human energy field, which is no small task.
I learned much about the fine line of integrity, as he worked in such a way that is unique in these shamanic spaces, never intending harm, but striving for balance. And his skill set was unlike anyone I've encountered.
Releasing grief on his passing, it was made clear to me that he was needed someone else right now. Somewhere else where his energy and wisdom could continue supporting our collective evolution.
Letting myself feel the human emotions, and trusting his return to the great mystery.
Over the last few weeks, I've been in sessions with clients all over the world - California, New York , Oregon, Uruguay, Arizona, & Ireland.
I honor all the beautiful souls who are called to the healing power of the plants and are dedicated to the medicine path.
Plant medicines unearth deep rooted emotions, memories, and traumas to be healed. And they have profound teachings for you. Whether it's your first plant medicine experience, your 100th, or you've been dieting master plants in the jungle.
As old wounding comes up, it's not always clear what is happening. The human mind has locked these memories deep deep away, and when they arise, they can feel intense, overwhelming and larger than life. Or the mind is fragmented, dissociated, fuzzy, confused or disoriented. The mind struggles to integrate in both cases, and the healing is incomplete.
Sometimes people lose trust in the healing process. They lose trust in the plants, in themselves, or in the facilitators who've been guiding them.
Or sometimes, people don't feel as connected to the plants, not sure if the plants are still there, or how to access the deeper teachings and guidance that is available.
This is all normal, and a sign that it's time for support.
In ceremony, you have more access to resource while in expanded states of consciousness, where you can hold, and be with the challenging experiences arising to be healed. Your capacity to heal trauma is greater.
This feeling of being supported can be a general feeling, from the spirit of a plant, your family or friends, the presence of the facilitator, nature, an animal, a higher power, your higher self, ...anything really.
And this isn't always the case - you can lose connection with your sense of a support, even in ceremony, and spin into a cycle of reliving trauma over and over, which is not a healing process. (This is where the role of the facilitator is to help guide you back and to bring in spirits & energies for support.)
Outside of the ceremonial context, it's easier to lose this feeling of loving support. In our everyday consciousness, we lose connection to the spirits of the plants, nature, our higher self, a higher power. This is why it's important to cultivate your spiritual connection and relationship with the plants in everyday reality.
In 1:1 sessions, I guide you to rediscover your own capacity to connect to this expanded state and to the plants. I also hold a resourced space for you to feel, to see, and to heal the challenging, or confusing emotions and memories that are just below the surface that you can't access on your own.
It's important to titrate these deeply held memories, to go slow. To go at the pace that feels safe and can be integrated.
💎 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻. 💎
Almost 100% of the time, in sessions, there is something just below the surface that is ready to be integrated. Whether it's healing, or wisdom from the plants.
The work of plant medicines does not end when the ceremony ends. They continue working within you. Their spirit, their consciousness, their wisdom is right there with you, always. The frequency of the plants outside of ceremony work slowly and deeply, continuing to unearth what is ready for healing, and teaching you to embody their wisdom.
I teach you how to work with the frequency of the plants outside ceremony during our session, and through practices & ritual. So that the magic of the plants can truly change your life.
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Protectress of Mother Earth, Intuitive, Shamanic Energy Medicine, Sacred Plant Medicine Integration, Soul Adventurer