When deep shifts are happening internally, I'm in my sacred space tending to the preciousness of what's unfolding. Listening, allowing, and cultivating space to birth the new.
A theme that's come up in client sessions this week has been how we tend to our sacred space in integrity.
Without pushing ourselves or expecting too much too soon. Without skipping over or bypassing the depths that are calling for our attention. Without distracting ourselves from the right here, right now.
A space where we allow the sensitive, vulnerable pieces of us to come to the surface. A space that is safe. A space where we can feel the plants, ourselves, the Earth, & the greater pulse of the universe all guiding a beautiful transformation.
And how can we engage with our external world when this is all happening inside? It can be scary at times to not know where it's going or how we will be received.
It's a delicate balance of tending to our internal transformation and being in the greater world. A mastery of stepping into our own medicine.
We can go deep into our space of solitude, protection and privacy. Essential at times for our precious transformation. And the gifts of this are unparalleled.
And sometimes, we get too attached to it, and we hide ourselves. Because we don't know how we will be received. We fear the worst - rejection, abandonment, ridicule, judgment.
Our external world - family, friends, community- may or may not be able to meet or recognize us for who we are becoming. Our tender parts who need safety and love need us to look after them in the interface with the external world.
I, too, have been engaging with people from new vulnerable spaces lately, allowing myself to be seen in new ways.
A part of me expected to not be truly seen or accepted. And I was at peace with that. And at the same time, I noticed I opened in new ways to receive and be received.
And I was surprised. I was seen and welcomed in new ways. The result - I let myself receive that feedback...and I felt myself blossom.
Pure magic. Encouraging me to continue to share, to be seen, & to step into my own medicine.
This is true integration.
A life long journey of continually bringing our becoming into the world. Cultivating our internal sacred space. And letting ourselves be received by those who can see us.
S L O W I N G D O W N
I've not been posting as much on social media, and it feels very good.
Instead, I've been immersed in my own integration. Letting everything weave into new patterns.
After a full on fall and winter of deeply working with plants in one way or another, I've been on a break for 6 weeks.
I've been tending to the pieces that have been uprooted, rewiring my nervous system, re-writing my beliefs, and addressing deeply held patterns in the body (through network chiropractic and structural integration).
My mind-body-spirit is thanking me.
I've always been an advocate of integrating the deep work, lessons and shifts from working with the plants in real time. And this is what I teach and guide clients to do. To cultivate their own system, their own practices, their own way of being with themselves, and how they tend to the relationships with the plants that they work with.
And to listen when it is time for a break.
I didn't realize how much I needed one.
Guiding a group of women through micro-dosing this week, I felt the call of the medicine, and my own desire to reconnect. I thought of micro-dosing alongside with them, but the message was clear.
"𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘆 𝗱𝗲𝗲𝗽𝗹𝘆 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 - 𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀. 𝗥𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝘂𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗽𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗮𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝘃𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗲𝗱."
I see a lot of people pushing themselves in overload with plant medicines. Not realizing how much of a toll it can take. And not realizing the depth of the integration work that is truly required to make the deep long-lasting shifts that they are desiring in their lives.
I think many get caught in the excitement, the anticipation of what's next, the need for stimulation or a new experience. Running from ceremony to ceremony, medicine to medicine. Is there an unconscious hope of "finally making it" or "finally healing"? What is the grasping all about?
What if instead - we rested in what is already alive?
The plants are eternal, always here for us with their wisdom and teachings. They would never guide us in a rush to the finish line. And instead teach us how to S L O W. D O W N.
To be present. To be aware. To take responsibility for every aspect of our lives.
"𝗡𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀: 𝗮𝘁𝗼𝗺 𝗯𝘆 𝗮𝘁𝗼𝗺, 𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗯𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲, 𝗻𝗮𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲𝘀 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸." (Ralph Waldo Emerson)
Slowing down to listen to the subtlest messages, the deepest guidance, never fails.
Usually this time of year, I'm heading back to my home in the jungle to be with the plants I love so dearly.
This year, I'm taking extra time to integrate, rest, to embody the deeper layers of what they've so generously helped me to transform.
I have the gift to fully allow my integration to nourish all parts of my mind-body-spirit. So that when I do return to the jungle (which I will soon enough), I am even more ready to receive them.
I am forever grateful for the beauty of weaving plant medicine practices into every aspect of my life. And now I am taking the time to honor the deepest shifts.
If you are working with plant medicines and want to get into the depth of their teachings, reach out. I love guiding people to feel, listen and grow with the plants, in the pacing that is truly supportive.
Entering the Temple
༄ 𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗧𝗘𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗘 ༄
The practice of a plant dieta is a sacred time.
It requires us to prepare the temple of our mind, body & spirit.
We prepare by creating sacred space within ourselves.
A place away from the normal busy-ness of our mind and the distractions of our world.
We cleanse and detox our bodies.
We carry with us our prayers, desires and intentions for the deep journey ahead.
Inside the temple, it is quiet, still, and sacred. An otherworldly dimension opens up.
Emotions rise to the surface and move through, all in a beautiful surrender to something greater.
As we invite a plant spirit into the temple that we've cultivated, we open ourselves.
To be guided by the plants on a journey through consciousness, in ways that we would never go on our own.
To be moved, to allow our thoughts, sensations, emotions, and energy to be infused by the spirit of the plants.
To receive their gifts of wisdom, energy, and healing.
We listen. We heal. We learn. And we grow.
We rediscover our truest visions and our deepest longings.
We step into a new way of being. One intimately interwoven with the plants, the Earth and all her wisdom.
Committing to this practice, is an act of love. And of trust.
For oneself, for the beauty of the plants, and the greater mystery.
Today, I'm honoring the commitment and courage of those who are about to enter into their own temples to welcome in the wisdom and magic of bobinsana.
A powerful and beautiful journey is about to begin!
༄ This cohort for 𝗔𝗪𝗔𝗞𝗘𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚: 𝗦𝗢𝗙𝗧 𝗗𝗜𝗘𝗧𝗔 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛 𝗕𝗢𝗕𝗜𝗡𝗦𝗔𝗡𝗔 is full. The next one is planned for June! And there will also be a group forming for micro-dosing with her medicine. Reach out if any of this calls to you!
It's been almost 9 years ago, that I met this gorgeous plant, bobinsana. And I can say that "She found me."
I'd arrived at a medicine retreat center outside Tarapoto, Peru to teach yoga. The invitation to do a traditional plant dieta appeared, and I found myself saying yes. I was unprepared and had no idea what to expect. But I felt something calling me.
For 7 days, I drank 3 times/day a concoction that tasted like the jungle herself- rich, bitter & earthy, but filled with vibrancy, aliveness, & magic.
I started to notice what felt like an infusion of the spirit of water in my body. Fluid energy moved in my tissues and in between my cells. I became buoyant & filled with a lightness that soothed everything.
I shifted into a deep melancholy and grief. I felt like I was being held under water, like I couldn't quite come up for a proper gasp of air, but I had just enough to keep on swimming. My everyday awareness slipped away, and I was in the fluid world of emotions & energy.
My dreams were alive, vivid and very palpable. I felt the spirit of bobinsana looking after me, guiding me on a journey into a place I didn't know, with her incredible love & care.
I learned to surrender and let go. The ocean of emotions below the surface of my consciousness - those that had been buried since childhood or were connected to things beyond my reach - arose with gentleness and ease. All ready to be washed away.
I entered a world that was tender and necessary. It felt like it had been waiting for me. All the while, feeling the infinite love and mysterious presence of a plant. One who was teaching me about love, compassion, & empathy, so that I could return to who I truly was.
One afternoon, I remember lying on a huge rock in the middle of the river under the jungle canopy. Everything in my awareness turned into the flowing river. My awareness WAS the water - my mind, my body, all became one with the rushing water beneath me.
It felt deeply cleansing, and the question arose - where did "I" go? The "I" that I'd known disappeared. I felt at a deep sense of peace, of surrender, of loving comfort. Whatever was happening, it was perfect and right on time.
My grief was turning into a profound love for everything. The pure joy of being alive, the healing of the jungle, the wisdom of the plants, the magnificence of the universe.
My heart was opening to receive the magic all around. I was returning to love as a state of being. A returning to a home that I'd forgotten.
The gifts of bobinsana are plenty. I'm forever grateful for this meeting, and how she continues to support and hold me, pointing me back to the clarity of my heart.
If you feel called to meet bobinsana, I have a small women's group starting February 8. We will open a sacred container to meet her and experience her healing magic in our everyday lives. Read more HERE, and reach out soon, as the group is almost full!
In truth, 2022 was a challenging year. Probably one of the top 3 challenging years of my adult life. A year of taking risks, making big decisions and investments, putting myself out there, and as always, navigating unexpected consequences.
I whole-heartedly trust the internal growth that is ignited within profound challenges ALWAYS has divine intelligence. The beyond is always the grand designer.
I came face to face with big healing this year - betrayal, loss, heartbreak. Uprooting deep old wounds, clearing out the lingering past. Leading me to dig deeper, to land once again in the solidity of all that is. The foundation that holds everything. No matter what is happening internally or externally, this is it; and the journey back each moment is the most profound healer and teacher there is.
The process of letting go of layers of concepts, perceptions, ideas of who I am, how life should look is always at it's core the most enriching and fulfilling path any one person could take. Because this year's shedding, ultimately led me to deeper alignment - with the truth of who I am, what I am here to do, to be, to stand for, to share. Beyond all the bullshit.
Sharing it out in the world into form, is a whole other journey. But one that I'm 1000% committed to embodying, no matter where it takes me, how long it takes, how messy it gets, or what anyone else thinks. The continual realigning to my truth sometimes is a practice of the yoga of disgust (as one of my teachers likes to speak about - sending gratitude to her if she's reading this). Disgust as the teacher for what is not in alignment.
I am welcoming 2023 with confidence and knowing. Connected to the visions; Watering their seeds planted in my heart and soul. They are the precious gifts that I am tasked with bringing into the world, for myself, for others, for this crazy evolutionary roller-coaster ride we are on.
With humble gratitude to spirit, with trust and excitement, I cross the threshold into a new year.
Thank you for reading, and I send blessings for your transition & our transition.
Into the Great Mystery...
𝗜𝗡𝗧𝗢 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗚𝗥𝗘𝗔𝗧 𝗠𝗬𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗬
I lost a mentor a few weeks ago in a tragic accident.
I only found out this week and it's hit me very deeply on all levels. I'd spoken to him the day before he died, and he was in unusually high spirits and offering a beautiful transmission.
This teacher I respected very much. I honor his deep wisdom and experience in healing and shamanic traditions from all over the world. He was someone that I could go with to the outer reaches of consciousness. Into other dimensions, into the bizarre, unheard of territories. Into the great mystery. And then bring it all back into the 3D world in the here and now.
We'd go unravel pieces of the mystery that were ready to be alchemized. And then he'd make sure all pieces of me were safely back in my body. Teaching me to continually refine my energetic field, my ability to perceive energies, and to decode the intelligence and the frequencies that I sensed.
He didn't work much with the plants himself, but always encouraged my dedication on this path. He championed the purity of their energies, their spirits and their power for healing this earth.
We had many conversations around the trans-human spaces, and as this popular AI wave rolls through, I half-laugh at what he would say. He was a very strong supporter of keeping all non-organic frequencies out of the human energy field, which is no small task.
I learned much about the fine line of integrity, as he worked in such a way that is unique in these shamanic spaces, never intending harm, but striving for balance. And his skill set was unlike anyone I've encountered.
Releasing grief on his passing, it was made clear to me that he was needed someone else right now. Somewhere else where his energy and wisdom could continue supporting our collective evolution.
Letting myself feel the human emotions, and trusting his return to the great mystery.
Over the last few weeks, I've been in sessions with clients all over the world - California, New York , Oregon, Uruguay, Arizona, & Ireland.
I honor all the beautiful souls who are called to the healing power of the plants and are dedicated to the medicine path.
Plant medicines unearth deep rooted emotions, memories, and traumas to be healed. And they have profound teachings for you. Whether it's your first plant medicine experience, your 100th, or you've been dieting master plants in the jungle.
As old wounding comes up, it's not always clear what is happening. The human mind has locked these memories deep deep away, and when they arise, they can feel intense, overwhelming and larger than life. Or the mind is fragmented, dissociated, fuzzy, confused or disoriented. The mind struggles to integrate in both cases, and the healing is incomplete.
Sometimes people lose trust in the healing process. They lose trust in the plants, in themselves, or in the facilitators who've been guiding them.
Or sometimes, people don't feel as connected to the plants, not sure if the plants are still there, or how to access the deeper teachings and guidance that is available.
This is all normal, and a sign that it's time for support.
In ceremony, you have more access to resource while in expanded states of consciousness, where you can hold, and be with the challenging experiences arising to be healed. Your capacity to heal trauma is greater.
This feeling of being supported can be a general feeling, from the spirit of a plant, your family or friends, the presence of the facilitator, nature, an animal, a higher power, your higher self, ...anything really.
And this isn't always the case - you can lose connection with your sense of a support, even in ceremony, and spin into a cycle of reliving trauma over and over, which is not a healing process. (This is where the role of the facilitator is to help guide you back and to bring in spirits & energies for support.)
Outside of the ceremonial context, it's easier to lose this feeling of loving support. In our everyday consciousness, we lose connection to the spirits of the plants, nature, our higher self, a higher power. This is why it's important to cultivate your spiritual connection and relationship with the plants in everyday reality.
In 1:1 sessions, I guide you to rediscover your own capacity to connect to this expanded state and to the plants. I also hold a resourced space for you to feel, to see, and to heal the challenging, or confusing emotions and memories that are just below the surface that you can't access on your own.
It's important to titrate these deeply held memories, to go slow. To go at the pace that feels safe and can be integrated.
💎 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗰𝗰𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗱𝗼𝗺 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻. 💎
Almost 100% of the time, in sessions, there is something just below the surface that is ready to be integrated. Whether it's healing, or wisdom from the plants.
The work of plant medicines does not end when the ceremony ends. They continue working within you. Their spirit, their consciousness, their wisdom is right there with you, always. The frequency of the plants outside of ceremony work slowly and deeply, continuing to unearth what is ready for healing, and teaching you to embody their wisdom.
I teach you how to work with the frequency of the plants outside ceremony during our session, and through practices & ritual. So that the magic of the plants can truly change your life.
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🌿 Also, coming in January is 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗣𝗹𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗠𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗖𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲- an integration group where we come together in community to support the powerful process of healing with the plants. Send me a DM for more info!
Re-finding my Truth
I just spent time out walking the lands, soaking in healingwaters, watching the setting sun. This place calls me every year, and it always turns into a vision quest.
I could feel all the crazy patterns that had me bound up - the doer and to-do lists, the worries, the "not good enough" voices - drop away.
Just me and the sacred land. Prayers, connection, knowing. The channels clear.
Re-finding and re-fining my truth - what lands in the deepest parts of me. Why I am here, what is my heart asking of me right now? What is calling my soul?
My medicine is out on the Earth. The Earth gives us so much - a home, food, water, resources, shelter, beauty and magnificence. The teacher of the Earth is one that many of us don't notice, or pay attention.
My heart's desire has always been to re-connect people back to her wisdom - and I have been so lucky to discover that teachings of the plants, who are eager to re-connect us back to our truth.
𝗗𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗻𝘁𝘀, 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗘𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗵, 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗱𝘀 𝘂𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗦𝗽𝗶𝗿𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝘀.
From this place, magnificence is birthed. Within, when we truly listen, we have all the knowledge, resources, and energy to create our lives individually and collectively in a way that serves all of life. A way that is in harmony with all elements and beings on this planet.
It sounds so simple...yet it's not. We get tied up in the cultural expectations & conditioning, our wounding and protective patterns, and we feel trapped.
We have to find our way out of the trap. We have to go against the grain, follow what we know is our truth. Follow what's in our hearts. Even if it's uncomfortable.
When we can listen deeply, it's natural to want to give back, to offer our gratitude for the chance to live this incredible life of evolution. To do our part and to make our lives a part of the greater intelligence. To serve and to give back to the Earth, her plants, her people, in gratitude, in love, in reciprocity.
This is in a strange way where I started. As an environmental engineer & sustainability consultant, I was intending to serve our Earth, to care for her, to keep her alive, healthy and safe.
What I quickly realized was that the pain, the dis-ease, the suffering that her humans held in their hearts caused them to act out in ways that destroyed, rather than healed.
While I turned my work to caring for the humans, for helping them re-connect to their hearts, the plants found me and did their magic. They showed me how to listen to them, the Earth, my own heart. How to find my truth and how to see how distorted our world truly was. They taught me acceptance, patience, and trust.
In 2023, the plants and Spirit, my heart and the Earth, all are calling me to bring more into my work about the giving back, the being in service to this Earth. Once the deep healing has taken place, how are we each called to bring our magic and medicine back into the world. In ways that create something magnificent.
Over the next month, I have a few spaces open to dive deep into re-finding your truth. 𝗧𝗥𝗨𝗧𝗛 𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗜𝗩𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟯, is a 90 min session with soul guidance, energetic alignment and transmission of plant teachers.
𝘼𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣 𝙤𝙛 2023, 𝙡𝙚𝙩’𝙨 𝙬𝙚𝙡𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙩𝙝, 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙩𝙮, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙥𝙧𝙖𝙮𝙚𝙧𝙨.
For a life that is fulfilling, and 100% aligned with your heart and soul.
This session helps you deprogram the old out-dated ways of being, unravels the conditioning, and uproots the subtle ways you are giving your power away. It helps clear out what is not in alignment with your truth.
I'll be offering a few of these sessions for 𝗙𝗥𝗘𝗘 to new clients, and if you want to know when those are announced, please send me your email!
Here's to more of us living from our hearts, and in our truths.
Medicine of these times
The last couple of weeks have been intense. Anyone else feeling it?
Sudden endings - the death of my grandmother, the heartbreak of relationships, and life dishing out unexpected twists of fate - all leave me with little to hold onto.
I get to see where I'm holding on to things that don't serve me anymore. That I have to let go in order for something new to be born. I'm thrown into the unknown on so many levels.
I know the intensity of these times is bringing the deepest transformation. This is the medicine. The best medicine.
I've been incredibly grateful for the medicine of 𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗺𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗰. (Yes, that golden yellow spice you have in your cupboard!) Turmeric isn't understood as a plant medicine - as a teacher of immense wisdom and healing. But she is.
She came through a few months ago, asking me to work with her (again) and share her medicine with others. 𝗡𝗢𝗪. This is some of the most potent times of transformation we've had. One of the gifts of turmeric is that she guides you through 𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵, 𝗿𝗲𝗯𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗻𝘀𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.
How could any of us want to remain stuck in life? In places that keep us small, don't nourish and feed us, and we aren't living our fullness?
The quote from Anais Nin rings in my ears - “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” At some point - we just have to take the leap.
We have to go through the whole thing. To step out of the fear of painful endings, often filled with all the emotions of letting go - heartbreak, grief, and sadness. It's only from here can we start to understand the wisdom from beyond, the flow of life, nudging us to grow out of our comfort zone.
Turmeric has a powerful bright light. The ancients recognized her as this - using her to purify the energy field and detox the body on the deepest levels. In this light, we feel safe and held - so much so, that we can step out of our comfort zones. We can leave the safety of what we are clinging to, and step courageously into the unknown.
What begins to emerge and take shape is something incredible. The process of transforming, of rebirth - the beauty, awe, gratitude, and reverence for being alive and having the courage to walk through the fire.
Because what's on the other side - 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙙𝙤𝙢, 𝙚𝙢𝙥𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩, 𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙣𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙡'𝙨 𝙥𝙖𝙩𝙝 - is 100% worth the transformation.
You can join us on a magical journey with turmeric! 𝗜𝗹𝗹𝘂𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱: 𝗦𝗼𝗳𝘁 𝗗𝗶𝗲𝘁𝗮 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗧𝘂𝗿𝗺𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗰 starts next week. Includes all materials, instructions, recipes, 1:1 energetic alignment, and the power of a group of courageous humans in the midst of deep transformation.
Here's to navigating these transformative times!
No matter what, I trust myself.
No matter what, I trust myself.
No matter what, I love myself.
No matter what, I hold my vision.
No matter what, I honor my deepest truth.
I will not abandon myself to expectations of the outside world.
I will not numb myself to distractions.
I will not override myself to please others, to fit in, to feel like I belong or to feel loved.
I will not sabotage my power, my light, and my joy... anymore.
Many of us are victims to our own selves - We abandon ourselves.
We do it unconsciously, in order to get something we think we want.
It's so sneaky. All the places our shadows look outside for answers. For validation.
We hide parts of ourselves- those parts that we fear won't be accepted, welcomed and loved by the outside world.
In reality, these parts aren't accepted, welcomed and loved by US. We cut them off and deny them expression. We lock them in a dungeon, hoping they will disappear.
It's a great disservice to our own growth, evolution and fulfillment.
The challenging emotions - heartbreak, pain, anger, grief - are suppressed deep in our bodies. Our bodies become a reservoir of experiences that we simply can't process.
We instead choose to distract ourselves. We self-medicate with quick fixes - food, sugar, alcohol, mind-altering substances, overworking, and toxic relationships.
We don't recognize and honor our own boundaries. We let others overstep, drain our energy, deflate our light, and steal our power. And we do it to ourselves.
What if instead you learned to sit with yourself in the deepest places?
What if you learned to heal yourself and free yourself of the challenging emotions?
What if you stood by the deepest parts of yourself, no matter what?
We as a society don't know how to be there for ourselves. We think something outside is coming to save us. We give our power away externally to the people and systems that let us down over and over again.
You have to relearn how to be your own best friend, your own healer, your own trusted advisor. Step by step, moment by moment. It's up to you, no one else can do it for you. You can have support - friends, therapists, healers, plant medicines - but ultimately, you are responsible for your own healing.
You have to choose to welcome yourself in the tender, painful and vulnerable places.
Even when the world says, "Get yourself together. Move on. Be happy."
Deep down you know that this is toxic.
There comes a time, when you will no longer stuff the precious parts of yourself down. You know these parts of you are keys to unlocking something beautiful, something meaningful, something that is dying to be alive in this world.
Each time you choose to be with that tender one, they learn to trust you. While the world doesn't welcome them, YOU are welcoming them. They see you as the one to rely on, the one who protects; the one who knows how nourish your heart and soul.
If you can learn to see and hold that tender one, and not override them- something magical opens.
Infinite possibility. Creativity. Love. Compassion. These emerge from the depths of your being.
A magnificent vibration emanates from within you.
You welcome yourself home. Nourishment at the deepest level.
YOU get to choose to break the cycle. To stay with yourself. To heal. To reclaim your deepest gifts.
This week, you can join me in diving deep into healing these parts of yourself. We are going to work with an incredibly loving plant teacher - turmeric. A teacher who can show you where you are abandoning yourself and giving your power away.
One who opens your body to release old emotions, while holding beautiful compassionate sacred space. One who brings you into inner union and harmony, so you can break through into taking radical responsibility for yourself, trusting yourself above all.
See the link in my BIO for more. 𝗜𝗹𝗹𝘂𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱: 𝗦𝗼𝗳𝘁 𝗗𝗶𝗲𝘁𝗮 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗧𝘂𝗿𝗺𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗰 begins Wednesday, October 19. I'm also accepting 1:1 clients, if you are ready to dive into deep healing work right now, and could use highly focused attention in a private sacred container.
Protectress of Mother Earth, Intuitive, Shamanic Energy Medicine, Sacred Plant Medicine Integration, Soul Adventurer