Our modern society is very attuned to the mind - to the mental frequencies. Everything we perceive is through visual, interpretation, and projection. We are disconnected from the frequencies of the heart. Learning to drop out of the mind, and into the heart, is an incredibly beautiful and life changing journey. It is often a long, deep process of releasing the old ways of being, emotions, and stagnant energies in the unconscious. And rediscovering the temple of the heart - a place of peace, aliveness, and wisdom. From the heart, we perceive the world differently and we amplify its frequencies, which brings healing and transformation to everything around us.
Plants are incredible teachers for us humans. They guide us on a journey through our consciousness, in ways that we would never evolve ourselves. One master teacher plant from the Amazon, Bobinsana, is a powerful guide for the journey of entering the heart. She brings us out of the everyday mind, into more fluidity and flow. Her water elements cleanse our emotional fields and prepare us to enter more deeply into the temple of the heart.
We, as a collective, are very deep in transformation - cleansing out the old, listening for the new. This new earth we are building, will be informed from the deep recesses of the heart. But we all have to learn to listen and attune to our own unique vibrations.
𝗔𝘄𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗕𝗼𝗯𝗶𝗻𝘀𝗮𝗻𝗮, is a 3 week journey with this Amazonian plant that begins 𝗝𝗮𝗻𝘂𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝟭𝟲. It's not a journey for the "faint of heart." It requires a commitment and trust of your own soul's path, an ability to ride the transformation of consciousness, and a love for the wisdom of the plants. Bobinsana becomes an ally, one that can guide you to more clarity and peace, so that your life becomes rooted in the temple of your heart.
Registration closes in a few days, on 𝗝𝗮𝗻𝘂𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝟭𝟯. Please email me if this calls!
Blessings for all of us reawakening to our hearts.
Emotions are rich and beautiful. Learning how to be with them, allowing them to move through us, and not get attached to them isn't always easy.
Our emotions impact everything, and can influence those around us. When we are happy, we transmit that to others. They feel it, and it often helps them tap into their own happiness. The same goes for grief and sadness. We intuitively know when other people are processing these deep emotions, and sometimes we feel it within our selves.
When we allow them to move through us, teach us, and guide us, we experience more freedom and more clarity of mind. You know how after a good cry, you feel better? You can see life more clearly? Emotional release is part of being human.
Right now, there's a large collective grief that some of us are tapped into. I've had a few clients lately overwhelmed and not sure how to process it all, and understand what it means for them in their lives. If we approach emotions with caring attention and acceptance, we can move through A LOT very quickly. Then the"backlog" of emotions are no longer weighing us down.
Bobinsana is an incredible plant teacher for releasing and being with our emotions. She guides us through with more gentleness and ease, helping us clear out old emotional baggage that's been stagnant. Having the support of this plant spirit, is an incredible reminder that we are interconnected with all of life - not just humans. We are journeying with this plant as a group. We will feel and explore how bobinsana is guiding us to release - our own emotions, and the emotions of the collective right now. So that we can clearly move into this next year with more ease and grace.
𝗔𝘄𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗛𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗕𝗼𝗯𝗶𝗻𝘀𝗮𝗻𝗮: 𝗦𝗼𝗳𝘁 𝗗𝗶𝗲𝘁𝗮 starts 𝙹𝚊𝚗𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟷𝟼.
Would love to have you join us.
Just around New Years, 6 years ago, I made a last minute decision to travel to India...𝗦𝗢𝗟𝗢. I'd just come out of more than a solid year in the Peruvian jungle. I'd ended a traditional dieta with an Amazonian tree from 𝘭𝘢 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘷𝘢 𝘢𝘭𝘵𝘢 - called bechuja - just barely a few weeks earlier. As with most dietas, my time with bechuja was life-changing in all dimensions.
The extremely sensitive being that I am, in this dieta, I finally felt the truth of my own essence and my own energy field. Bechuja brought a powerful protection, and taught me how to filter out the rest of the world. Something I don't know if I ever had known how to do before. I remember sitting in the middle of the last ayahuasca ceremony of the dieta, around the flame of a candle and had the profound realization that I felt absolutely no-one else's energy, though many sat around me. The new 𝗙𝗥𝗘𝗘𝗗𝗢𝗠 I felt had me in tears. What I was feeling - was literally JUST ME, and it was beautiful. Bechuja was gifting me with a pathway to hold my own boundary and protection. I could finally be me in a world of infinite energies. A precious precious gift of not processing any and everything around me.
In this dieta, India came to me in her mysterious way through the channel of the plants. I'd always wanted to go to India, but the Peruvian jungle kept pulling me back. In one ceremony during this dieta, a being blasted through on a horse, with a sword, shedding light and slashing through a prior experience of jungle brujeria. I asked who this being on the horse was, and I heard "Ishvara." I knew almost nothing of Hinduism, but later came to understand that in the most basic explanation - Ishvara is God, Supreme Ruler, Lord Shiva.
After I'd had enough of the mayhem, and had felt complete at the temple, I moved on to Maheshwar. Only to discover that the one solo woman traveler I'd seen in the streets of Omkareshwar, was thankfully staying in the hotel room next to mine. A discreet, sharp Italian girl, who was also traveling solo through India, following in her dead fathers footsteps from his journey decades ago. We were immediate friends.
In Maheshwar, there was a buzz too, but it's energy was more peaceful with a mix of something mystical that I couldn't quite name. On the Narmada River, they were just beginning the Sacred River Festival in the gorgeous old Ahilya Fort. Filled with traditional music (the sitar alone was enough to satisfy my soul) and dance, decorated with flowers and oil lamps. It was a side of India that I had not yet seen. One that told of an ancient rich culture still alive deep within Mother India. And it seemed somehow to magically appear just in time for my birthday. Ahilya was the home of Ahilyabai, a QUEEN - a rarity - who was respected as she took good care of her realm centuries ago. Later I learned she was the one who rebuilt one of the most famous Shiva temples - Kashi Visgwanath - in Varanasi. I intuitively followed the trail and arrived there a few weeks later, during Shivaratri, where 100,000 pilgrims gathered (which is another story for another time.)
I don't know about you, but did 2021 just seem to keep going...on and on, with more and more challenges? But somehow, we've made it through.
⫸𝙒𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙤'𝙫𝙚 𝙘𝙧𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧, 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙤'𝙫𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙨, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙬𝙝𝙤'𝙫𝙚 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙙 𝙥𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡, 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙘𝙧𝙞𝙨𝙚𝙨. ⫷
We are all in the midst of a deep transformation. Most of us are wishing for a shift (both big and small) in our external and internal realities. Trust that it 𝗜𝗦 𝗛𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚. Each time we have been required to look within to heal, transform and make new choices and decisions, we move into a new reality. This collective world transformation is nothing like anyone expected, but we are all doing our work, and it adds up. It's been really hard at times, I know. And it's unearthed within us, incredible new energies and strengths that we didn't know were possible.
The journey continues to unfold, with lessons designed exactly for our evolution. This is what it's about - don't you think? Evolving humanity on Earth, so that we are living in our truth and in our hearts. That means everything that's not truth or that's based on unconscious fears, has to go.
⫸ 𝗜 𝗶𝗻𝘃𝗶𝘁𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 𝗡𝗘𝗪 𝗬𝗘𝗔𝗥 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟮: 𝗙𝗢𝗥 𝗬𝗢𝗨𝗥 𝗝𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗘𝗬.⫷
༄Tʜᴇ Mᴇᴅɪᴄɪɴᴇ ᴏғ Sᴏʟɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ (ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ғᴜʀʀʏ sɪᴅᴇ-ᴋɪᴄᴋ) ༄
With so much isolation, loneliness, and grief, it's a seemingly unusual path, to rest in deep solitude. In the current state of affairs, the busyness and noisiness is distracting. Busyness is always distracting, but these times have a different tone. There's a way where it sneaks in as a false answer to our ever increasing discomfort. The cost of getting caught in it, is it amplifies what's below the surface.
I spent the last week for the Winter Solstice in Southern New Mexico, hiking, exploring, communing with the land...ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ (with my furry side-kick of course). I needed to cultivate a deep sense of solitude - away from the computer, the "to-do", the "keeping on top of everything." A place where the truth and heart can be rediscovered in a new way.
This is not something new to me - solitude is a path that I know. It's a commitment, and at times it's very hard to do. But to be honest, options are seemingly limited at the moment. I knew I had to do something. These 2 years have worn on most of us in profound ways. I needed to take time at the close of this year to see more clearly what's happening inside. Shedding layers that were ready to go. In ceremony and prayer, I let old emotions and long-forgotten memories release back into the Earth. I rested in quiet and in stillness, ending subtle (and sometimes not so subtle) internal struggle and conflict.
I welcomed my dear old wise friends - the Earth, the winter Sun, the Moon, the long starry nights, and some precious plant teachers. I brought them inside to help me clear out what is not needed, and make more room for the truth. It's an experience of pure beauty and love, to rest in solitude in this way. Never truly alone, always connected to the infinite flow of life's wisdom, teachings and mystery.
Returning back to "the world," I notice again many emotions - the tangible loneliness, grief, heartache, fear, desperation - they are still very much pulsing within us humans. Grateful for the moments of true relief and release- through laughter, joy, and connection - these are also much needed medicines. Medicines of being in it together. Here, too, we can rest for a moment, let go, and refind our truth that's just beyond the surface. Whether in solitude, or in true connection, it's the moments of that truth that are pulling us through it all. In the grand scheme of things - it's all rather incredibly beautiful. Let's keep going.
🔥 ℙ𝕙𝕠𝕖𝕟𝕚𝕩 ℝ𝕚𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 🔥
For the last few weeks, I've been struggling with strange symptoms - my energy has been fluctuating, I have a painful rash, my skin itches everywhere, I have abdominal cramps, I've lost my appetite, and I am losing weight. I woke up in the middle of the night a few times having a hard time breathing, heart fluttering, seriously considering that maybe I needed to go to the ER. Finally I made it to urgent care, where they think perhaps it's parasites. Through it all, I know I'm fine, and feel much better coming to some understanding of what's happening on a physical level. I'm used to dealing with the emotional and spiritual healing, and to bring it into the physical, takes a greater reserve of self-care.
I know many people right now are struggling with seemingly mysterious and unknown physical symptoms. Many of us are being forced to pay attention to caring for our bodies. It's not easy - it takes an immense amount of energy, patience, kindness and finding the right support of doctors, healers, naturopaths - those we can trust. My heart goes out to those who struggle with chronic illnesses, who still show up in this world somehow. And many blessing for those who've had to walk through the fire with the virus. When your body needs this level of healing, the depths of the transformation requires every ounce of awareness and life force.
This last week, I've been journeying and guiding others in a journey with wild reishi. Reishi, know as the "mushroom of immortality," along with the physical intensity I've been experiencing has been a potent teacher on life and death. It seems that many have also been leaving this plane of existence lately - not just from the virus, but other causes. Sending blessings and prayers for their transition and those they've left behind as they leave this human reality. Reishi has been guiding me to feel more deeply into the immortality of life, myself, of the grander universe. Facing mortality and integrating the duality that we are not this body and yet we are. At the same time, reishi is bringing me more into my embodiment - into my physical human body, my incarnation, and this Earth. It's opening and clearing the channel between heaven and Earth - as something I can rest into, trust and allow the transformation to take it's course.
A few nights ago, I was extremely uncomfortable with all my symptoms - I wasn't able to lie still (much less sleep) - the rising phoenix appeared. It was me, around me, and everywhere representing a greater collective of humanity, whether still in this human form or not. All being reborn. Like reishi, the phoenix rising is a symbol of immortality. Having walked through the fire and burned to death, it rises from the ashes of suffering, reclaiming a new magnificence - miraculously emerging with such beauty, grace and strength. They say that the medicine of the phoenix is so powerful that it's tears heal everything that they touch. It's ashes bring the dead to life.
This is us. We are being reborn right now, in many and all ways. With immense strength and courage to bring forth something new, we burn the past into ashes.
I've seen a few posts on social media lately coming down on plant medicines. It's interesting, as to me, it shows that some people are really missing the point.
The negative perceptions that people are using the medicines to "escape," "get high," boost their images (egos) and be the ultimate cultural "cool" gives the plants themselves a bad reputation. But it's not about the plant medicines themselves, but about the people. People are "mis-using" and "abusing" these medicines which are revered as very sacred by the indigenous and those who understand their magic and power.
All of us are bringing our personal shadow, the collective and cultural shadow, with us to the plants. The plants are pure and truthful in their expression. It's the human aspects that the plants are bringing to light. Let's recognize the difference.
Some people working with plants continue operating in shadow, not doing the courageous work to see it, own it and transform. We see entire medicine communities operating out of alignment with the sacred. The plants are only highlighting where there is still work to be done. And there's a lot of it.
Working with plants is about 𝗥𝗘𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗣 - including relationship to self, to the sacred, and to the plants. All in one the same. If we work with plants as sacred sacraments and truly respect them, they will open up to share with us their miraculous healing, their magic, their ancient wisdom. But we have to also work through the not-so-glamourous times of truly facing our shadows. Just like any relationship.
Let's do our work, and let the plants do theirs.
》》𝙎𝙪𝙥𝙥𝙤𝙧𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝘼𝙢𝙖𝙯𝙤𝙣𝙞𝙖𝙣 𝙄𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙜𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙨 𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙢𝙪𝙣𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙚𝙨 《《
How to honor and respect Amazonian Indigenous traditions? The people, their ancestors, their wisdom, and the ecosystems of the Earth from which many plant medicines come.
Many of us are working with indigenous traditional medicine - something that collectively we've brought our Western consumerist mindsets and values to. We've taken it and made it our own. (What has been happening in the plant medicine world as it propagates the West deserves a deeper examination and conversation.)
How can we support the communities? Their livelihoods, their health, their lands that are deeply impacted. I know many are working in this area- some of you on the ground. Thank you. None of it is perfect, but we start where we can. Our energy of gratitude and our resources bring awareness to the reciprocity and repair that is needed...
From the sales of the plant medicines, textiles and jewelry this year, I am returning as much as I can back to organizations that support the communities. Here's who I'm supporting. All have incredible missions. Check them out!
1- 𝗟𝗲𝗴𝗮𝗹 𝗙𝘂𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗜𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗪𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗻, Helena Gualinga and Amazon Watch
2- 𝗖𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝗘𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗵, Supporting indigenous leaders in Brazil
3- 𝗦𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝗦𝗵𝗶𝗽𝗶𝗯𝗼 𝗔𝗿𝘁𝗶𝘀𝗮𝗻𝘀 & 𝗙𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗗𝗲𝘀𝗶𝗴𝗻𝗲𝗿𝘀, Alianza Arkana
4- 𝗦𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝗜𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗠𝗲𝗱𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹 𝗚𝗮𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗻𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗔𝗺𝗮𝘇𝗼𝗻, Alianza Arkana
𓆸 𝗣𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗧 𝗠𝗘𝗗𝗜𝗖𝗜𝗡𝗘 𝗜𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡 𝗜𝗦...𓆸
𓆸 𝗔 𝗝𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗡𝗘𝗬: What we discover on the journey of diving into ourselves, the journey of working with plants, is we have everything we need inside. It already exists. What this world needs is all of us embodying and claiming our OWN WISDOM.
Plant medicines take us on the hero/ine's journey deep into the unknown. We leave the world we know behind. This exploration of consciousness - of who we are, what life is, what the world is - is a calling humans have been following since the beginning.
Our initiation into the unknown takes tremendous courage. It's a solitary journey, where we dig deep and uncover parts of ourselves we didn't know existed. And yet it's a journey we collectively share. We are alone and yet not alone.
The wisdom we gain, we are tasked with integrating it back into our human lives. We bring what we learned, embody it and live each moment from a new way of being. This is how we make the changes we wish to see in the world.
𓆸 𝗚𝗥𝗢𝗪𝗧𝗛: We discover new aspects of ourselves by leaning into the discomfort, riding the frontier of our consciousness, and charting into new territory. We grow by continuing to stay in the practice of being present with our experiences.
𓆸 𝗘𝗠𝗕𝗢𝗗𝗜𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧: Through physical and energetic practices, sharing, and expression, we embody the multi-dimensional experiences of working with the plant - in our human life.
𓆸 𝗠𝗘𝗔𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚: Through self-refection and awareness, we discover new meaning and insight that offer our lives vision and purpose.
𓆸 𝗜𝗡𝗦𝗣𝗜𝗥𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡: Plants re-ignite waves of inspiration and creative life force. When taking inspired action - putting this energy into form in the world- we experience fulfillment, satisfaction and joy.
𓆸 𝗔𝗖𝗖𝗘𝗣𝗧𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘: All experiences in life are arising in perfect timing for us to learn from. Sometimes, life, ceremony and integration do not go as we expect - we are disappointed, hold resentment, or feel hopeless. Accepting these situations as teachings, we develop strength, compassion and courage to keep healing and letting go of what no longer serves us.
𓆸 𝗖𝗢𝗠𝗠𝗜𝗧𝗠𝗘𝗡𝗧: Shadow elements - things that have previously been unseen- return to forefront of consciousness to be seen, felt and released. As more is unearthed, it does not not mean we are backsliding, but continuing the spiral into deeper healing. This includes challenging experiences (fear, shame, resistance, denial, rejection, projection, judgment, criticism, cynicism, disbelief, distrust, anger, rage, grief, loneliness, illusions, and conditioning). We stay committed to the process, and see these as opportunities for healing, learning and expansion.
𓆸 𝗗𝗘𝗘𝗣𝗘𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗧𝗥𝗨𝗦𝗧: As we move through challenges, we deepen our trust in self, the plants and spirit. Sometimes, when the fear (or other emotion) is strong, we run away, back into the comfort of old pattern. We have compassion; we do not judge or criticize ourselves and we give ourselves time and space. We stay with the feelings - express them, feel them in the body so that they can be healed. We create and seek out safety to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and go deeper, in our own timing, and with the support we need.
I'm one of those sensitive, empathic beings, who's struggled to feel safe and comfortable in my own body and energy. I never identified as such, until I learned that what I feel in my body was actually much a reflection of what was happening in my environment (and vice versa). I was receiving so much subtle information all the time. I didn't know how to digest and interpret it. I was overstimulated and overwhelmed. It took its toll on my physical, emotional and mental health. I was always in management mode - trying to manage and mitigate the feelings and sensations, insomnia, constipation, anxiety, stress...
When I was introduced to the world of plant medicines, I felt I'd finally found a home. They way of the plants - the subtle ways of learning and experiencing everything reassured me - that the sensitivity was a beautiful gift - and that it would be a long journey to learn how it all worked. The second home coming was when I discovered there was a word for what I'd been feeling all along - energy! (or prana or qi in Eastern traditions). The energetic life flow that moves through and pervades everything on this planet- including plants, humans, animals, microorganisms, the galaxy, and the vast unseen.
I'd found my calling - learning how to perceive the universal energy of life all around us and how the plants healed and shared wisdom through their energetic vibration and their spirit. All in service of guiding us to live in harmony on Mother Earth.
I've been on a long journey for the last 15 years, reclaiming my sensitivity through shamanic plant medicine work, energy medicine, yogic practices, and attuning to the energies of the earth. It's taken healing the old wounding, unravelling collective conditioning and learning the "secret" ways of the universe. I feel more confident about who I am, and how to operate in this world. Our modern world has lost touch with the energetic and spiritual understanding of life. Many of us are opening to these experiences and learning that we live in a much more intricate and beautiful world than we once thought! But it takes a journey of digging deep and letting go to truly embody these gifts.
For the last 8 years, I've been supporting people in understanding their sensitivities and abilities to perceive energy and information. Some people are deep in the plant medicine world, and some are simply energetically aware people on a deep spiritual journey to reclaim who they are.
If you want to learn more about how I can help reconnect you to your own energetic system, your spirit, and your innate wisdom, please check out my offerings. I have openings for 1:1 support, energy work, mentoring, plant medicine integration and intuitive readings. Send me a message for a free 20 min conversation to talk about what's going on in your life!