No matter what, I trust myself.

No matter what, I trust myself.
No matter what, I love myself.
No matter what, I hold my vision.
No matter what, I honor my deepest truth.

I will not abandon myself to expectations of the outside world.
I will not numb myself to distractions.
I will not override myself to please others, to fit in, to feel like I belong or to feel loved.
I will not sabotage my power, my light, and my joy... anymore.

Many of us are victims to our own selves - We abandon ourselves.

We do it unconsciously, in order to get something we think we want.

It's so sneaky. All the places our shadows look outside for answers. For validation.

We hide parts of ourselves- those parts that we fear won't be accepted, welcomed and loved by the outside world.

In reality, these parts aren't accepted, welcomed and loved by US. We cut them off and deny them expression. We lock them in a dungeon, hoping they will disappear.

It's a great disservice to our own growth, evolution and fulfillment.

The challenging emotions - heartbreak, pain, anger, grief -  are suppressed deep in our bodies. Our bodies become a reservoir of experiences that we simply can't process.

We instead choose to distract ourselves. We self-medicate with quick fixes - food, sugar, alcohol, mind-altering substances, overworking, and toxic relationships.

We don't recognize and honor our own boundaries. We let others overstep, drain our energy, deflate our light, and steal our power.  And we do it to ourselves.

What if instead you learned to sit with yourself in the deepest places?

What if you learned to heal yourself and free yourself of the challenging emotions?

What if you stood by the deepest parts of yourself, no matter what?

We as a society don't know how to be there for ourselves. We think something outside is coming to save us. We give our power away externally to the people and systems that let us down over and over again.

You have to relearn how to be your own best friend, your own healer, your own trusted advisor. Step by step, moment by moment. It's up to you, no one else can do it for you. You can have support - friends, therapists, healers, plant medicines - but ultimately, you are responsible for your own healing.

You have to choose to welcome yourself in the tender, painful and vulnerable places.

Even when the world says, "Get yourself together. Move on. Be happy."

Deep down you know that this is toxic.

There comes a time, when you will no longer stuff the precious parts of yourself down. You know these parts of you are keys to unlocking something beautiful, something meaningful, something that is dying to be alive in this world.

Each time you choose to be with that tender one, they learn to trust you. While the world doesn't welcome them, YOU are welcoming them. They see you as the one to rely on, the one who protects;  the one who knows how nourish your heart and soul.

If you can learn to see and hold that tender one, and not override them- something magical opens.

Infinite possibility. Creativity. Love. Compassion. These emerge from the depths of your being.

A magnificent vibration emanates from within you.

You welcome yourself home. Nourishment at the deepest level.

YOU get to choose to break the cycle. To stay with yourself. To heal. To reclaim your deepest gifts.

This week, you can join me in diving deep into healing these parts of yourself. We are going to work with an incredibly loving plant teacher - turmeric. A teacher who can show you where you are abandoning yourself and giving your power away.

One who opens your body to release old emotions, while holding beautiful compassionate sacred space. One who brings you into inner union and harmony, so you can break through into taking radical responsibility for yourself, trusting yourself above all.

See the link in my BIO for more.  𝗜𝗹𝗹𝘂𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱: 𝗦𝗼𝗳𝘁 𝗗𝗶𝗲𝘁𝗮 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗧𝘂𝗿𝗺𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗰 begins Wednesday, October 19. I'm also accepting 1:1 clients, if you are ready to dive into deep healing work right now, and could use highly focused attention in a private sacred container.

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