🔥 ℙ𝕙𝕠𝕖𝕟𝕚𝕩 ℝ𝕚𝕤𝕚𝕟𝕘 🔥
For the last few weeks, I've been struggling with strange symptoms - my energy has been fluctuating, I have a painful rash, my skin itches everywhere, I have abdominal cramps, I've lost my appetite, and I am losing weight. I woke up in the middle of the night a few times having a hard time breathing, heart fluttering, seriously considering that maybe I needed to go to the ER. Finally I made it to urgent care, where they think perhaps it's parasites. Through it all, I know I'm fine, and feel much better coming to some understanding of what's happening on a physical level. I'm used to dealing with the emotional and spiritual healing, and to bring it into the physical, takes a greater reserve of self-care.
I know many people right now are struggling with seemingly mysterious and unknown physical symptoms. Many of us are being forced to pay attention to caring for our bodies. It's not easy - it takes an immense amount of energy, patience, kindness and finding the right support of doctors, healers, naturopaths - those we can trust. My heart goes out to those who struggle with chronic illnesses, who still show up in this world somehow. And many blessing for those who've had to walk through the fire with the virus. When your body needs this level of healing, the depths of the transformation requires every ounce of awareness and life force.
This last week, I've been journeying and guiding others in a journey with wild reishi. Reishi, know as the "mushroom of immortality," along with the physical intensity I've been experiencing has been a potent teacher on life and death. It seems that many have also been leaving this plane of existence lately - not just from the virus, but other causes. Sending blessings and prayers for their transition and those they've left behind as they leave this human reality. Reishi has been guiding me to feel more deeply into the immortality of life, myself, of the grander universe. Facing mortality and integrating the duality that we are not this body and yet we are. At the same time, reishi is bringing me more into my embodiment - into my physical human body, my incarnation, and this Earth. It's opening and clearing the channel between heaven and Earth - as something I can rest into, trust and allow the transformation to take it's course.
A few nights ago, I was extremely uncomfortable with all my symptoms - I wasn't able to lie still (much less sleep) - the rising phoenix appeared. It was me, around me, and everywhere representing a greater collective of humanity, whether still in this human form or not. All being reborn. Like reishi, the phoenix rising is a symbol of immortality. Having walked through the fire and burned to death, it rises from the ashes of suffering, reclaiming a new magnificence - miraculously emerging with such beauty, grace and strength. They say that the medicine of the phoenix is so powerful that it's tears heal everything that they touch. It's ashes bring the dead to life.
This is us. We are being reborn right now, in many and all ways. With immense strength and courage to bring forth something new, we burn the past into ashes.
Protectress of Mother Earth, Intuitive, Shamanic Energy Medicine, Sacred Plant Medicine Integration, Soul Adventurer