As a teenager, I mastered the look of being a "good" girl, but I had a rich inner world - and explored it in art, music, plant medicines and nature. But I was quickly taught that I had to choose a different path, something more practical, like math or science, to be "successful." So I kept my inner world quiet. Choosing instead to be "smart" and "nice."
But this rich inner world was where I was most alive.
I went on to work a normal job in the city, like people did. (As an engineer of all things! But with the intention of being in service to nature - as an environmental engineer.)
Until, the creative adventurous one inside couldn't take it anymore. She broke out.
I quit my job and landed in the Amazon - deep in the world of plant medicines.
The one I'd locked up, unconsciously, to fit into society, was beyond ECSTATIC. She was finally FREE. And she was having the time of her life adventuring in the jungle and travelling to the outer reaches of consciousness.
It was absolutely fantastic, and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. It also hit home, in that it connected me deeply to the Earth and her wisdom, the feminine, the mysterious, and the raw wild aliveness that the world seemed to tell me to shut down.
Eventually, I realized I couldn't live in the jungle forever and that I had to return. I had to leave the journey of a lifetime...to return to what exactly? And why?
Unbeknownst to me, my soul had a plan. I'd learned so much about who I was and who I was not. Six years of this deep dive was simply a drop in the bucket, and the human me would have kept going. (But honestly, I needed to ground and integrate at the deepest levels).
The time had come to return and bring who I was back into the world. My path was not to live out in the jungle the rest of my life.
A healer in India (another adventure that fed my heart and soul) kindly delivered the message to me - "You are not meant to be a 'shaman' in the jungle." At the time, I couldn't receive the message as I was completely immersed in the depths of the plant world. But in time, I discovered she was right. I had another place in this world.
Coming back, there was no way I could return to life as normal. I cringed to think the societal constructs I had left behind were still alive and thriving and waiting for me.
I was between worlds - the one I'd left behind and the one I'd been free and unchained.
How in the world am I going to do this?
"This is your path" the plants whispered.
"This is will never work" I said.
"Yes it will. Trust yourself. You have to bridge these worlds. Get creative. Bring what you learned back into this world" my soul answered back.
Thus, the journey of finding my own way back began. Like fumbling in the dark, stammering through the jungle. Not a light or a path in sight.
I had learned to follow the plants, to deeply trust them and ultimately myself, into other dimensions, past traumas, and uncomfortable truths- so why not do so in this dimension too? Was it really that much different?
Thankfully a few mentors helped me navigate my own way...but none of them had the experiences I had just had. They were incredible support, but it was ultimately up to me to find the way.
The decisions, the choices, which direction to go. What to reject, what to embody. What do I need, what can I leave behind. How to listen to myself, the divine and my plant teachers. The lessons poured in.
Everything had to be aligned with my soul. My spirit. The Earth. The plants. There was no other way. In all this, I learned what TRUST YOURSELF really meant.
It meant discovering where the wisdom of the plants meets our modern world meets my own soul calling.
It meant tuning in and listening at the deepest levels.
It meant commitment and dedication.
And it meant owning my path, by choosing my own navigation system over and over again.
This deep soul-level journey is what Plant Spirit Calling is about. Plant Spirit Calling is a 6-month mentorship - combining the wisdom of the plants and developing your own energetic/shamanic awareness - that guides you to TRUST YOURSELF undeniably in your unique medicine for this world.
Imagine that you get to:
࿓ Express your creativity in a way that nourishes the deepest parts of you.
࿓ Courageously follow the guidance of your soul and beloved plant teachers to align your life & work with your soul's unique path.
࿓ Integrate the wisdom of the plants into everything you do.
࿓ Feel confident in your ability to navigate anything that comes your way.
࿓ Feel confident to expand into unknown territory, creating a life that only you in your unique wisdom can create.
This is why you are here. Is it time to follow the call?
Schedule an Initial Consultation to find out!
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